you having none of the fame of someone half your age by Kathryn Fitzpatrick

you having none of the fame of someone half your age
your grandma’s winning smile mixed with your mother’s rage

think you’re the main character, then spend all day in your bed
avoid telling your therapist about the voices in your head

spending hours in dbt and still hurting your friends
a tumblr search in the fifth grade now a goal weight at 110

hours on wikipedia, not knowing your own mom
spend all day on your makeup just to sit alone at prom

binge watch forensic files, purge your dinner plate
blaming everyone around you for problems you create

keto diet pro tips that feel like a foreign tongue
getting a good feeling at the expense of your lungs

the culmination of it all hurts more than i can say
fighting all the feelings i got when i learned to pray

ache inside my heart as you look at me like a crime
always promise to myself it will be the last time