What It’s Like To Fall In Love With A Girl

EVA VILA 

when she breaks up with you 

your tears will be 

blood red 

like the kiss 

she gave you on a saturday night 

when the stars were angels’ eyes 

watching reproachfully from heaven 

and your hand in hers 

was more a sin than a promise 

she walked you home 

on a silent road 

silent like your mother 

when you told her 

who you are 

cause you couldn’t hold it in any longer 

but mothers have a way 

of making you hate yourself 

when you’re not 

who they wanted you 

to be 

maybe that’s when you start 

to hate the girl 

who holds you and 

tells you you’re beautiful 

and she knows 

it doesn’t matter how 

many times

she traces a heart on your back it won’t fix the real one 

broken in your chest 

so when she stops walking you home and the only thing you have 

is the memory 

of her lips on your cheek 

you thought you would feel empty but instead you’re full 

of longing and sadness and 

a lot else you don’t know how to name and the eyes of monsters 

watch from heaven 

as tears begin to fall 

and since eyes are 

the window to the soul 

your tears are 

blood red 

your soul is dying 

without her