Diving In head first by Heaven Holford

and feeling the water
break at the tip of my fingers
then the rush of water engulfing
my whole body.

the feeling of being fully submerged,
holding my breath as i
sink to the bottom
eyes closed, heart racing.

hearing the muffled splashes of children
from the far end and feeling
the bubbles burst and float
by as they rush to the surface.

i know how to swim
but for a moment i wonder
what would happen if i suddenly
couldn’t and i
drowned.

i am a diver and you are the pool,
i dove in head first and now i can’t
remember how to swim / which way is up and
i wonder if i will ever
reach the surface
again